Best birthday present

I've been thinking alot lately, about how lucky I've been. i have been truly blessed. there are still days that i look at my son and its hard to believe that he's really mine. for you to really understand you have to know how far i've come. i have been pregnant four times and i only have one child. my first pregnancy ended after i was kicked in the stomach at work(i worked at a mental health facility). A year later i was pregnant again i was elated, but that pregnancy was not to be, that pregnancy ended at 20weeks and five days with my water being broken and was in labor for 73hours, i held my little girl in my arms she was so pretty. i was pregnant again a year later and we all knew this pregnancy had to be different but that one was not to be my third pregnancy ended at 25weeks, i could not bring myself to hold my son, but my mother and my husband did, he was a fighter but the hospital i had him at was not equipped to take care of such a little person. Took me almost two more years to get pregnant again, by this time i had already given up. i hated going through all that pain and having nothing to show for it. and no doctor i had been too could tell me that this was the problem. they all kept saying there was nothing physically and anatomically wrong with therefore there was no solution to my problems, according to them. So i took my case to the only doctor i knew could heal me i took my case to God. But what i've now learned is that when asking God for something, be as specific as possible, here is why, When i found out i was pregnant i started praying to God for a child that will glorified God's name. If i had known that God was planning on giving me a preemie that will defiy all odds (not that am complaining) i would have been more specific on my prayers. I sometimes don't realize how truly "fortunate" i am until i look back at the experiences i've had in the past year. Being a nurse i know the odds of a 24weeker surviving and better yet one that survived with no problems at all. we had our first emergency room visit on my birthday feb21. i was terrified cus my baby cried no screamed all night friday night with nothing visibly wrong with him, this was not typical of my son, this is a boy that wakes up after 8-11 hours of sleep smiling each morning, so him screaming tells me that there is something terribly wrong with my son. so off we went to the er. and wouldn't you know it michael started smiling as soon as we entered the er. but i still had to find out what was going on. because of his history the docs ordered so many tests, they also wanted to find out what was going on. but after an 8hour stint in the hospital we were discharged with a diagnoses of fussiness!!! but all in all i am thankful. but what the doctors told me is what got me so thankful. one of them came up after all the blood tests and said that my son was the healthiest 24weeker that he has ever seen. the next doc that came in said that she just wanted to see the 24weeker they were talking about, after a brief exam she looked at me smiling and shaking her head, she said do you realize how fortunate u are? all i could do was look up at her smiling. after i got home exausted as i was i hugged my son and thanked him for such a great birthday present, the doctors words was my son's present to me. i have a child, i have a child that is glorifying God's name by existing, i have a son the wakes up each morning with a smile on his face. thinking back to all i've been through with my husband, his many infidelities, the child he had with another woman while we were married, the older woman that confronted me about sleeping with my husband, my three miscarriages, my month in the hospital upside down, the five months my son was in the hospital thinking back on all of this i know that my ordeals were worth it. When i wake up each morning and see that famous smile on my son's face i know all i've been through had been worth it. my son makes it all worth a while and if i had it all to do again i would do it all that same exact way. inspite of what my husband had done without him my son would not have been possible. Big Mic thank you so much for the best birthday present ever!!!